I can't sleep. I woke up in the middle of the night sweating, I was so hot. Now I can't get back to sleep.
I have so much on my mind that I'm beginning to think it's manifesting itself in having stomach issues. Last week, I thought I had a stomach virus, but maybe it was the just stress, now that stress has begun to show out. All week it's been hard for me to eat without feeling the food sitting in my chest. Periodically continually to belch and feel uncomfortable at night when I sleep. It's like something is burning a whole in my chest when I lay down and I feel awful.
Manifestation of stress is no joke because its the onset of disease...meaning that your body is at some kind of dis-ease. I pretty much know the cause of stress.
Things that are out of my control - but I think about them so they affect my mental and emotional.
This list is in no particular order. It's just the day to day grind of life and I'm trying to find ways to be less stressful. I need to get back in the gym so I can physically work off these kinds of pains. But at the moment my mind can't and doesn't want to do it - so goes the mind...the body follows.
I clearly understand that I'm not pulling the positive energy into my sphere at this moment. I'm feeling the physical pain of it. I need to redirect the negative energy out of this hole of unmentioned unspoken fear and just deal with my issues.
Tonight I got word that someone I know - their mother passed away of a heart attack. Something so unexpected. So shocking. I feel for this someone I know. I don't ever remember meeting her mother, but nevertheless her grief is understood.
I can't afford mentally, emotionally, or physically to sweat the small stuff....because in the scheme of life - IT'S ALL SMALL STUFF.
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